Oh my gosh! Youth On Fire was sooo cool. I can't believe it. LOL... I feel sorry for the rest of the world who wasn't there. Hehe, they missed out on so much.
My legs still hurt from dancing and jumping and gong crazy. It was juz awesome. Plain awesome. I don't know about the rest of the world. But there is nothing sweeter than being a christian and living a life that's right before God. I've struggled for ages... juz how weird it is, to be so crazy about God... but now that I think about it. It's like, if the rest of the world knew what I knew, if the could juz understand and feel God like I have... i know they'd be crazy in love with Him too.
Anyway... I decided I should try to live life again. I gotta come out of this black hole i've been living in for the last few years. I gotta stop feeling sorry for myself. I gotta "learn to breathe again"... i know that if I try to live for God and get real with my relationships and all that. I might get hurt again... but it's better the juz shriveling up and dying. Besides, what have i got? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. So.. what have i got to loose?
So many times, I feel so insecure... bcuz i feel so insignificant. I feel so quiet like I don't really matter to anyone. Like my life doesn't make a difference. Well, I still feel like that... but i'm gonna try and make a difference... I'm gonna try and live for God again.
It absolutely startles me juz how things work... it never goes the way you planned it. Never. Sometimes I wonder why we're taught to plan at all. Why do ppl tell u they love you but they give up... just as fast on you? I dunno. It's the world I guess. So much has happened lately. I could've gone here and done this and done that. Could've totally changed my standards... lived a different life. But I just can't make it without God. I never can... I never will. And now I know I'd never want to...
Sigh... so here's my song:: Take my beauty, take my tears... take my world apart. To love you... I am on my knees. Hehe. I've always loved that song.
You kno.. it juz always ends up this way. I'm always left with only God and nothing else... yeah.. God and jammers. Hehe. Aww... they trully are a gift to me. I love you jammers.
"Whom have I in heaven but You? on earth there is none I desire besides You..."
BOO! It's me again ... It's yet another day in Kapitbahay (thats the shop my parents own..) I juz went to take my passport picture... and renew my passport thing cuz it expired. The picture of me was so noot nice. Aww, how come I actually look good on those yahoo cameras but not in real life ..hehe.
Yesterday was a good day for me too... chilled with P Nate. We had dinner at Amaronis... mmmm. Italian food. Then juz walked around in Causeway. I really have to go shopping but the thing is shopping could be sooo annoying, seriously... specially when u dun really know exactly what you have to get...
Aw well, at least I have something to spend now.. not like before. I'll catch y'all later... me go chill with my online buddies now.. hehe.
I see you've tripped into my place. I had to cancel the old. Juz wasn't working for me anymore. Well, I'll be updating this every so often so you gotta keep coming back, k? I mean... you'll never know when smth exciting might actually happen to me..
But for now... umm... nothing worth mentioning has happened yet so... yeah. I think I'll get off this thing and try to make somthing happen now...
... It's yet another day in Kapitbahay (thats the shop my parents own..) I juz went to take my passport picture... and renew my passport thing cuz it expired. The picture of me was so noot nice. Aww, how come I actually look good on those yahoo cameras but not in real life 
..hehe.